Sad Day

The baby is well, and moving around. L actually got to feel him/her move last night but the sad news is that our family dog, ie.- Chase, Chasers, Fluffy Puppy, died suddenly this week.

I really don't want to get into the saga that led up to it all. Needless to say we knew that something was wrong but he didn't seem to be in any pain, just feeling a little off. Restless.

We were going to take him to the vet in the morning. We decided to let him rest on his pillow next to our bed. When I went to check on him 30-40 minutes later he was gone.

I know that I have posted this picture before but it's my favorite of him, our Chasers.

LP didn't seemed phased by it the day after- but the following day was different. He just cried for probably a total of 40 minutes. Inconsolable, nothing would sooth him. He didn't want to eat, didn't want to be put down, didn't want to play. He just kinda clung to me while letting out great big sobs and tears. I just kept rocking him until he finally fell asleep.

It was so unlike LP-- I worry that he was feeling a little lost without his furry friend.

All Is Well

We went for the u/s.

Everything looked good. Wonderful. Fantastic.

We did not find out the sex, so we are awaiting our surprise in January-

Yay!

I have been reading blogs, just not responding.

That's about all the energy I have. Sorry, I am just pooped.

Cheers to a lovely week for you :)

Yes or No?

Next week is our "big" u/s. I will be 19 weeks.

I don't know why but I am freaked out. I am terrified that we will go in and they'll say, "Sorry, no heartbeat." So irrational.

But I know that it happens. Who's to say it won't happen to me?

I swear I have felt some movement which leads back to the irrational thought process. However, feelings are rarely ever about being rational. So it's just this big, ugly, irrational, circular motion.

I am still on the fence about finding out the the sex (assuming the above does not happen). I love, love, love the excitement that comes from not knowing. I also love the fact that not knowing drives other people crazy :) Plus, L would prefer to not find out.

But I also would really like to get some clothes ready as I discovered with LP, I like the pink or blue clothes as opposed to the yellow and green. If this is another boy he will be in a completely different season from LP so there will be no sharing clothes early on.

L and I are also having trouble around names- mostly boy names. I have had two dreams where we had another little boy and L was unhappy with what I named him- in real life and the dream. L is just not crazy about it.

I think that there is something to it because it was the same name in both dreams and the name itself was never previously discussed. I won't tell you the name just because I don't want to upset anyone- plus I am trying to keep it on the "list" because I really like it.

However, I would like your impute- finding out, yes or no? Discuss.

Wakings

So I have noticed a trend in my life.

When I wake up, either at 2am or 5:30am I am instantly thinking about money and bills. Then I just lay there for about 1-2 hours worrying. Sometimes I will actually get up and work on our household budget.

What causes your night wakings?

So Juvenile

I will admit to you how juvenile I really am.

I was in church this past Sunday and couldn't help but snicker every time I had to sing the line, "I will go with Him all the way."

Sacrilegious I know- but there it is.