Regrouping

Feeling slightly better.

Slightly.

Due to some cuts we have a whole $22.00 left over every month right now. It's a start. I am hoping to keep finding more cuts to make.

The contract work continues to be super slow- I am hoping I can make half of what I did last year- and to somehow come up with a November check.

I sent out a couple of emails asking for people to keep their ears open for jobs that I might be able to do. So far I have gotten a small filing project that will take about 10 hours and my sister is in need of a sitter for two days this month. It's something and I am grateful.

Also, another friend has found a possible opening for me. It's only 4-5 hours a week but simple enough that I could keep it if my contract work picked back up and would still work when new baby arrives. I would have to be present on Sunday mornings, it's for a church nursery, making me unable to attend church with my own family. I have an interview on Thursday morning so please wish me luck.

On the baby front...

Things seem to be quiet so far. During my monthly appointments my dr has found super small traces of sugar or protein- and sometimes nothing. She is not concerned right now but keeping an eye on me. My my yak test (aka glucose test) is set for mid- month. Why can't they just let you eat a Snickers with your favorite soda?

Baby continues to hit my bladder often enough where I am considering investing in D.epends.

I am starting to get more excited about his or her arrival. There are times I feel like this pregnancy is lasting forever coupled with moments of disbelief that I am approaching my 3rd trimester.

I have tried to focus on the fun things with this pregnancy as it may be our last. Which makes me sad and yet, feeling like there is some light at the end of the tunnel. The light being I can put the RPL anxiety officially behind me. Forever. Strange after you have been living with it for so long.

I am in need of some advice from those of you who have had winter babies--- being in the South things rarely stay cold for long but... what things we should have around for immediate use and what we should locate shortly after birth. Were there clothing items you found helpful? Or were there items you could have lived without?

Done, Thank Goodness *(Warning: Rant Ahead)*

I am thanking the heavens that my last immune treatment took place last week.

We found out a few weeks ago that L is taking a pay cut of 3% for the next year in effort to prevent lay offs (never mind what his government contract says). I get it, I really do... it's going to leave a serious hole in an already tight budget. We have used savings to pay for the treatments and now due to the pay cut we have no way to try and replace the money (trust me, I have looked).

I know it's all for a good cause but when you have to spend well over $2,000.00 just to have a family it makes it difficult to remain financially prepared to maintain that family. *Not to mention that our insurance does not cover a dime AND we can't take a credit on our taxes for it because it doesn't meet the "required" percentage of our income. So we just have to eat it... (sigh)...

So now you know that I am thinking about at 3am.

We are so insanely broke that I cannot even joke about it.

I just want to cry.

I Am Surrounded

Most of the time I enjoy living in a college town.

I like that there is often an event happening (not that I ever go), a play to catch (not that I do), some band to see (um, I have a kid), or that I can wander around downtown to people watch (which I sometimes do).

However, what I hate, especially when pregnant, is how impossible it is to enjoy your greasy, cheese-melted-just-right pizza, with all these skinny, look-at-me-my-thighs-don't-rub-together bitches running around in their cute trendy outfits.

And sometimes getting that mental slap-in-the-face when I am driving down the road eating my hot, salty fries and the skinny sorostitute runs by in her skimpy workout clothes that exposes her big boobs, tight butt, and flat abs.

Maybe next time I should hang my greasy fry bag out the window at her and see how she likes it.

Whores. I am surrounded by whores.

Seriously Now

What does a pregnant girl have to do to take a pooh around here????